“A woman with a frozen woman – skip the line,” the ultrasound doctor announced for the entire queue in front of the gynecologist’s office.
The future mothers, who had just been indignant at my “boorish” behavior, fell silent. The indignant exclamations were replaced by sympathetic murmurs.
I leaned against the doorframe and closed my eyes so as not to see the pitiful looks.
But how it all began …
***
I felt pregnancy about a week before two strips on the test. In the morning it was nauseous, the lower abdomen was unusually pulled, my chest ached. It looks like the state before the start of the cycle, but something is not right.
And here are the two stripes. But in the evening of the same day, bloody discharge began, which frightened me very much.
At that time, family finances did not yet allow going to a private clinic. Therefore, from the very morning I began to make my way to the district gynecologist in the antenatal clinic. It’s all good there now. And ten years ago there was, I’m not afraid of this word, a mess.
Somehow I got through. Emergency, no appointment. The doctor confirmed the pregnancy, the term is 4-5 weeks. Allocation, they say, is not scary, it happens.
But for some reason she did not register it, although both me and her were entitled to bonuses for the early setting. She gave a bunch of directions for tests and said to come at 11 weeks – they say, then she will put it on record.
Time flew and dragged on. Periodically, my stomach ached, and several times I noticed blood stains on my underwear. But she reassured herself: the doctor said it might be so, especially on days when menstruation should have been. I continued to take tests and waited for an appointment.
I mentioned the mess ten years ago for a reason. In the reviews on the forums, they wrote: there is no point in arriving on time, the reception is seriously late. In principle, I expected that when signing up for 6 pm I would be received at 7 o’clock. But I was mistaken. I entered the office 20 minutes before the end of the working day.
“Have you got the tests? Let’s fill in the card, – the doctor was clearly in a hurry home. – Do you have any complaints? Allocations? Acceptable. Does your stomach pull? This is also normal. “
They never looked at me on the chair that day. But they immediately signed up for the first screening. But not for 12 weeks, but for 14. Previously, there is no free time in the ultrasound room.
Three more weeks of anxious waiting. Almost every day I looked at my belly in the mirror – it seemed to me that it had grown. It was embarrassing that I stopped vomiting, my chest no longer hurt, but my friends said that I was just lucky, the toxicosis passed almost imperceptibly.
“Freezing. Eight weeks. “
Each word was imprinted in my mind like a flash – blinding, deafening.
“But I’m already fourteen,” I barely managed.
The doctor frowned and quickly left the office. He returned a few minutes later: “Now, skip the line to see a doctor and make an ambulance hospitalization for cleaning. This is urgent! “
***
“Why are you dragging it out so long,” the dear doctor looked at me reproachfully. – Six weeks with frozen fetus. Do you understand that a little more – and he would start to decompose? “
Here I burst into tears for the first time. I really wanted to explain that if the gynecologist explained to me what symptoms should be alarming, if at least at that first visit she looked at me on the chair and even then realized that the fetus was not developing. If I were less trusting and more persistent … But what can I say.
***
The operation went quickly, but they were in no hurry to discharge me. A week under observation and with antibiotics: the inflammation has already begun in the uterus, and my bleeding did not stop for a long time.
A few days after being discharged, I had to go to the gynecologist’s appointment again. Close the sick leave. This time she was sweet and smiling.
“Well, what can you do, it happens,” she stroked my hand. – You see, and the histology showed no failures. This means that he was not a tenant. Now you will heal and try again. “