What did you want?

They often say to me: “What did you want?” Or else: “What do you want? So tell me, what do you want? Or they say: “What do you want? Well, how did you want it?»

I think: “Really, how did I want to?” Well, really, well, what did I want? And how did I want? And even more so — what do I want? And sometimes I think: “Oh, I wanted to say something, I wanted to say something!” What did I want? What did I want? Well, what did I want? And even more so — what do I want, eh? What do I want?

What did I want? And I wanted — and I want — to feel good, not better, but good, just good. And I want it all the time, and I wanted it, and I want it to be good. Well… not all the time, but at least often. This is what I want and want.

And I also want to … well, never lie, well, not to be ashamed. Because when you lie, you are ashamed, and I would like so much not to lie and not to be afraid … so that you would not be ashamed, and then it will be good. That’s what I wanted… and I want. And because I want it, I’m not ashamed. I would like it so as not to lie, not to be afraid, so that like sailors and pilots … like this … because sailors and pilots, after all … they never lie. That’s how sailors and pilots, that’s how I wanted and want to be like sailors and pilots…

But because it’s scary to think: what if the sailors and pilots are also lying? And are you afraid too? No, they can’t! Someone must always be brave and never lie? And so I also wanted … I also want.

And I also want … I want to love … here … so love, so as not to think whether they love me or not. And to love so that when love leaves, jealousy does not remain, so that there is no jealousy. That’s how I wanted and want. I want all the time.

And so: «What did you want?» What did you want … The main thing: «What did you want?» And this is how I wanted, this is how I wanted it to be good … to be good … brothers, to … well, to be good, you understand? Well, so … well, like this — not better, but simply — good. And more often… more often.