“They called me Titanic at school”: the story of a girl who lost weight from XXL to XS

– It was very difficult for me at school. Most of the guys didn’t know my name, but everyone knew that there was a girl called “Titanic”. This nickname was given by the high school students and turned my life into hell.

Dasha is 22 years old. She graduated from a teacher training college, lives in Moscow, works in her own small company for the development of logos and business cards, maintains a blog and, like all girls, loves to dress fashionably. It is difficult to imagine that two years ago Dasha weighed almost three times more – 135 kilograms, and could only afford huge “aunty” jackets and dresses from the market.

How she managed to change and overcome her habit of constantly eating, she told Wday.ru.

– I dreamed of relationships, friendship, a walk with guys by the hand. But in reality it was huge and in general, few people were interested. At school, they also began to persecute me. The girls who arranged it all often hung out with the company in my yard. And I had to look for workarounds on the way home so as not to stumble upon them. Otherwise, they followed me, shouted that I was “Titanic”, and made the sounds of a steamer …

There was one more nickname – zhiropupus. It was given by classmates whom I once considered friends. The bullying was constant, at some point I was just left alone. It took a long time to get stronger and change the attitude towards all this. Only in the ninth grade, when the Titanic was called, I began to answer: “Okay, the Titanic is a famous ship. So thank you all, I am popular. ” They became uninterested in humiliating me.

“I came up with excuses not to go out with my friends”

There were much more problems with the clothes, I could not find it anywhere. I went to cheap shops with Chinese clothes and bought what I could pull on. Peers stood at the windows of boutiques and wondered what to take – blue jeans or shiny leggings? And I had no choice. I wore some pants, which, God forbid, would fit for a couple of months, then they were torn from friction of the thighs against each other, and I had to look for new ones, the same.

In winter, everyone wore trendy parkas or short jackets, and I had a down jacket purchased from the market. Such, you know, like women over 50 years old.

I did not go to physical education, I negotiated with the teacher to give theoretical assignments. In college, I began to deny my girlfriends walks, coming up with reasons, but in fact I just could not admit that it was hard for me to walk. I always took a taxi, spent most of the money on it, and they laughed at me: “Oh, you are rich Buratino.” Going home to the fifth floor (we do not have an elevator), I stopped at every staircase to catch my breath. And if you still had a heavy bag or backpack in your hands …

The first step

Before the 9th grade, my mother wanted me to be examined by doctors, including an endocrinologist. The doctor examined my analyzes and said that everything was normal. And being overweight is only my fault, and this can affect childbirth. I remember how frightened I was then. In mid-September, I realized that I wanted to change. Refused all harmful, sweet, flour and fatty, began to have breakfast with cereals, curds. The dinner was the same as everyone’s. And for dinner I tried to eat some kind of protein product, salad, not very fatty yogurt. So by the end of the 9th grade, I lost 40 kilograms. This was the first step.

I went to college with the hope that I would continue to lose weight. But things didn’t go according to plan. A close friend got pregnant, stopped denying herself all sorts of goodies, and I decided to keep her company in this. After couples, we went to the nearest shopping center and dined at a fast food restaurant. At breaks, they could eat five pies. Naturally, I gained weight again. And again I began to buy pants in size 60.

“Itself became a motivator”

Once I, so huge and clumsy, came home, sat down and began to look at the photos from the school prom. I asked myself: why then, at the end of the ninth grade, I could? It seems that even now there is a desire, every time I promise that I will start on Monday … But there is no action or result. Then I realized: I need it not from Monday, I need it now. And from the same day she began to change her diet, reduced the portions. Itself became a motivator. Neither photographs of thin girls, nor someone else’s stories inspired me as much as I myself, as that “feat” in the ninth grade.  

The first kilos were gone quickly. It was easy to give up sweet and fatty foods, more difficult – from starchy foods. I set a goal – to lose weight up to 68 kilograms. But then I realized – you need to take small steps – to lose a kilogram, two, then another kilogram. So in two years the weight approached 66 kilograms, and I realized that I could still. And now I weigh 55-58 kilograms.

Now it is, I feel comfortable.

The most difficult thing was to start and endure the period when the body is being rebuilt.

I didn’t drink any pills, teas, massagers, nothing. This is proper nutrition, calorie counting. And – movement! I just started walking. After work, I first walked 10 thousand steps. Then more. But this is my experience, everyone has everything individually and ideally, of course, one should consult a doctor.

“Those who persecuted me now ask how to lose weight”

All my life I avoided reflections in mirrors, I could not look at myself in full growth, it caused disgust. Now with self-esteem everything is in order, men began to pay attention to me. Recently I went to a bar with my friends and was so excited on the dance floor that all the guys gathered around.

By the way, I still have problems with clothes – it is still difficult for me to find my size, but already the smallest one (it was XXL, and now it is XS). But you do not need to adapt to any style, as before. Recently, I found my “past life” trousers and climbed into one leg with both feet.

Last winter, in a store, I met a girl who hounded me at school. She worked at the checkout. Recognized me. She looked for a long time, and then lowered her eyes, served and that’s all. And many classmates are now very fat. And I have only pity and misunderstanding for them: why was it necessary to be affirmed at my expense? You pretended to be such “cool” ones, but you ended up in my place. We switched roles. And it’s funny that some of those who participated in the persecution are now writing to me and asking how to lose weight. And this is real, guys. The main thing is to take the first step.