Dedicated to my client Anna, who gave me the idea for this story and who no longer feels neurotic.
They are stomping again.. So that they would fail — these neighbors! Damn, if they fail, then on me! And in general, our ceilings are thin .. What is it: the slightest earthquake — and everything will collapse? Or a hurricane! The climate is changing .. And everyone seems to have agreed not to notice this! It might be the end of the world soon..
I need to go to sleep .. I woke up again at half past five — but what is it ?! And if so some kind of latent disease manifests itself? See what, on the Internet? Or not? If I look, then I will think about it. If I don’t look, I will too .. So at least I know that you are dying, and from what. Still certainty.
What? Already an alarm?? Why am I in such pain? Now back to this hard labor .. It has long been necessary to look for a new job! But it’s scary, how .. Suddenly it doesn’t work out .. Here, although not very much, you can endure it. And who needs me at 31?
Bread .. I didn’t buy black again! After all, I try to control everything .. You can’t relax!
And how do you want a cheese sandwich .. Eat with white or just yogurt? If I eat, I will cut myself again. After all, nothing fits! And in general there is nothing to wear .. Why did I buy a red dress? I doubted it. Now I don’t wear it .. Or maybe take it and put it on today? Decided — I’ll wear it! No, it will be funny .. What am I, like a fool, to work in red .. And where else to wear it? What a miserable life I have..
Well, at least Vladik tolerates me. Well, I’m not a fashion model .. Whatever it is, the main thing is that with me. Look, I loved Dimka for ten years — I was waiting for him to get a divorce, but where is it .. I still love him after all .. Don’t think about it! Not to think! Not to think! Where do I need red .. I’ll put on a black blouse — it’s more familiar in it.
We need to call Vlad. Why doesn’t he take tue?! What happened, Lord? Or does he have someone? I’ll keep calling until I get through, otherwise I’ll go crazy. Only yesterday I was happy when I went shopping with Katya. They chatted, laughed .. She knew after all — then something would happen! It always happens when you’re happy!
Hello, Vladik? Why didn’t you come? I called twenty times! In the bathroom? So what? You need to take your phone with you — suddenly something happens! Whatever, Vladik!
Oh, I’m late .. Every day the same thing! Run away again and feel guilty .. So .. I took the keys, I took the umbrella .. I go out. How sunny! The umbrella is heavy, but let it be just in case — God forbid you get sick in addition to all the misfortunes!
Did I turn off the iron? Return or not? Then there will be no road if I return, and if I do not return, I will think all day .. Are you talking to me, young man? Have you understood? What? I am beautifull? Sick, or what, or scoffs? Well, why do I need all this in one day, Lord? This is not life, but punishment!