“I have an aggressive brain tumor, maybe a year ahead of me”. How does the disease change your life?

«Last year the doctors found a dangerous tumor in me: maybe I only had a year left. I am determined to spend this short time doing things more important than self-pity. I feel my peace of mind grows in the face of death »writes the German influencer (known for her conservative views) and medical student Linnéa Findeklee. In Die Welt, the woman wrote about the change that was initiated in her by the news of an aggressive brain tumor.

1. In 2021, Linnéa Findeklee found out she had an aggressive brain tumor. It is possible that they only had a year to live
2. This news made her realize that there was no time to waste, that you had to concentrate on the really important things: “I decided that I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life in the company of negative emotions, like anger over the past or sadness over a future that was denied me”
3. Instead of crying over herself, Findeklee wants to laugh as much as possible. Instead of feeling sorry for yourself – consciously address what makes her happy
4. She found faith herself, although, as she admits – late. “I was especially convinced by the principle of forgiveness.” “Forgive and you will be forgiven”, says St. Luke
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Author Linnéa Findeklee, welt.de

“My personal life motto”

Probably no other film has shaped and inspired me as much as the comedy-drama “The Secret Life of Walter Mitty” (USA, 2013) based on the story of the American writer James Thurber. Its protagonist is Walter Mitty (Ben Stiller), a dreamer escaping into the world of imagination.

Mitty is the head of the photo archive of the “Life” magazine, which is now closing (specifically about to be transformed into an online medium). There is only one last issue left to prepare. Its cover is to feature a photo of world-famous photographer Sean O’Connell. Unfortunately, the negative of the photo was lost. Walter Mitty decides to find the artist and get the original from him. He embarks on a journey that changes him.

I was particularly impressed by the quote from this film so important to me. It has become my personal life motto: «See the world and the dangers. Look over the walls, find and feel each other. This is the meaning of life ». I felt these words then, not even imagining how important they would become for me in the coming years.

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Aggressive brain tumor. “I was told I might have a year ahead of me”

Last year, doctors discovered that I have an aggressive brain tumor. I was told that I might have a year ahead of me. It’s a clear statement. So clearly that it made me realize very quickly that I had no time to waste. I decided that I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life with negative emotions like anger over the past or sadness over a future that was denied me.

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Instead of crying for myself, I want to laugh as much as possible. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I want to consciously address what makes me happy in life. I focus on what is really important to me personally. «See the world and the dangers. Look over the walls, find and feel each other. This is the meaning of life ». At least for me.

The relentless waves of outrage on the internet are absolutely pointless. It is all the storms of so-called social media, carried by the collective artificial excitement that shapes the daily lives of so many people today. At least those who allow it.

“Not only because of the tumor, I have long forgotten about many storms”

I do not exclude myself from this. I, too, have been part of this excitement machinery many times. Most of the people who know me owe it to social media. It is perfectly clear. Even though for me the whole thing, at least I want to admit it, was often more of a game type. I do not mean, however, that the content that I disseminated there was incompatible with me. Not.

I stand by each of my tweets. Well, just in case, let’s say most of them at least. Of course, I was constantly evolving – and who really remembers all my posts online and can therefore say with certainty that today everyone would write exactly the same way? I do not.

It’s not just a tumor in my brain that I have long forgotten about many storms. Especially those who turned against me. Despite all my inner political convictions, I have never taken myself and my “work” in the conservative “Twitter bubble” as seriously as many of the left and right people who were indignant at my statements.

“I see things with completely different eyes than before”

Peace grows in the face of death. If I look at Twitter or Facebook again today, I see things with completely different eyes than I used to. It certainly has something to do with the fact that I now log into my accounts much less frequently than I did before my diagnosis. Incidentally, I can highly recommend this to anyone for whom this social media look is part of their daily ritual.

I know very well that for many people it is not that easy. For a long time, such an update also seemed to me almost synonymous with morning personal care. Today I see above all the cleansing power of withdrawing from time to time from the prevailing toxic excitement and hypocrisy. If you allow yourself to take such breaks frequently and for a long time, you will quickly notice how many negative events have passed you without making the slightest impact on your life.

I just don’t want it anymore. Now, more than ever, I care about my peace. A place where everyone is constantly angry with each other just isn’t right for me anymore.

“Do not judge and neither will you be judged”

And just as I am writing these words, something happened that deeply touches me and shows that there is the other side of the internet. My former classmates set up a GoFundMe site for me where people can donate so that I can make my travel dream come true. This beautiful gesture and the overwhelmingly large amount of feedback from people who often only know me (…) from my texts make me cry.

«Do not judge, and neither will you be judged. Do not condemn and you will not be condemned. Forgive and you will receive forgiveness »says St. Luke. (Luke 6:37). I found faith myself, and more specifically Catholicism, late. I was especially convinced by the principle of forgiveness.

Of course, this applies not only to the digital world, but above all to the real world. Not only because I am counting on forgiveness for my mistakes and sins, but also because I want to forgive from the bottom of my heart all those who have sinned against me.

Depending on the circumstances and the person, this is obviously not easy for me. This is probably the heaviest cross I have to carry in the last few meters. But the burden that aversion would carry if I still had it would be even heavier.

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