Yesterday’s thoughts: / psychologies / forum / post / 15281 / Today’s: Everything will remain so. As usual, as usual, naturally … The Highest Happiness is not here and not now. We are not worthy of him. We are people. Just people. I will continue to dream about him, about our love. About common, honest, pure, true love. I will worry … He will also worry. He does not want to cheat, but he cannot think of any other way out. He became entangled in himself, perhaps even stronger than me. Now I can see it. It’s nobody’s fault. We are just people. We are not Gods, not even psychologists … To understand each other, to understand those around us, to understand ourselves … We must keep the feeling of gratitude. And respect. He taught me to feel, although he himself did not realize it; thousands of my most sincere smiles are also his merit. Moments of happiness are always valuable. Even if they lasted for seconds, even if they were replaced by inexpressible sadness … The most difficult thing is with that feeling of tremendous tenderness when tears come to your eyes, when you want to hug and never let go. He will not understand this either, probably … I want to give all the tenderness to him … Present. Forever and ever. There is so infinitely many of it! .. But you cannot order your heart. Especially someone else’s. And everything will be like this … And I will not stop dreaming, for some reason …
2021-08-11