” After having underwent embryonic reduction 3 years ago, I had a very strong desire to have another little piece. Whether he was a girl or a boy, it didn’t matter to me. As long as I have that baby that I want more than anything. I think about it again and even though I am very happy with my twins, I still need one to make up for the loss of the other two parties to join the angels. On the family side, no one is aware, for them, I do not have to have this desire. But it’s stronger than me, I even manage to cause myself a delay of periods, to have the belly which swells and want to vomit whereas I know that it is not possible because I have an IUD. I don’t lose hope that one day a little being will be lodged in me. ”
myle
Joëlle Desjardins-Simon:Embryonic reduction is far from being a trivial act. Myle, you seem to bear the guilt heavily, not telling your loved ones about it, fabricating imaginary pregnancy beginnings, and hoping that a new conception comes to mend the destruction of your two embryos. How to ease this burden of guilt so as not to pass it on to your unborn baby?
“After 8 miscarriages in 4 years, including a twin where I lost the second embryo two weeks after the first, an ectopic pregnancy diagnosed late, therefore removal of the damaged tube, phases of torrential tears… Yes, the obsession was there. Tons of exams, calculations, a shrink … In short, I arrived in tears at my gynecologist, saying: stop, I crack, I stop all the treatments, I take the pill again, I no longer believe it. It was one miscarriage too many! So resumption of a regular pill, without forgetting, at a fixed time, it was in February 2011. No other treatments, just magnesium to go up the slope. June 2011, a pregnancy test that I had left (so many lots bought) in my pharmacy, as an embarrassment to throw it away intact, I do it. I reread the “manual” 3 times, I was so flabbergasted that it was positive! A few days later, dating echo, 7 weeks pregnant. Total rest. February 2012 at term, my little heart is there 4,02 kg and 52 cm. ”
Sandrine
JDS: Your journeys show how life goes without our knowledge and to what extent, in matters of infertility, nothing is irreversible …
“For 5 years, we wanted a little piece of ourselves… but no! This was hard to see friends, family, all becoming parents at work, it’s so easy for others! There were a lot of tears retained or hidden, I admit… And then 2 inseminations later, our little one was born, almost 7 months ago. Never lose hope ! »
Charline
JDS: Infertility, already painful, sometimes awakens fierce and unspeakable jealousies which further increase the suffering.
“When desire becomes a need, when this desired presence is long overdue and when it becomes an absence…. I think the word obsession is badly chosen! When you have to bury all your hopes, I thinkwe can talk about mourning! »
Blueberry
JDS: You should not be alone with so much despair… Surround yourself with your loved ones, your spouse so as not to face this alone.